halu :)

its been a while i havent write something here. i just feel so lazy. this week is the last week before the semester 1 end. to conclude, this semester was the best ever in my life. it was so fun and ecstatic! we do not hve exam like the other courses but of course the most boring and pressure part is when doing the assignment. so far, all my classmates are okay and fun to be with. we had spent so much time together and those memories will always in my thoughts forever. i m looking forward for all of this for the next semester. hope tht our relationship will always remain like this forever. :)
next monday, i will going back to my home! i am so excited to meet my fam. but part of me is actually feel sad to leave my friends here. im going bck early than the others so tht make me feel a little bit weird. luckily, tesl night is postpone so i will not feel guilty to go back early. its look like i just making home as excuses not to attend the tesl night. i feel so bad to my classmates.
i havent packing my things to go bck. idk where to put all my stuff. urgh. its suck u know to move all your things as if i am not going to stay in tht room again. im kind of pissed off. hehe. im spending time with my gf tonite. better to stop here bcoz i wnt to watched a movie. tata! :)

IMTF :)

In My Thoughts Forever. hehe. i dont know wht to do today. my roomate is sleeping so im bored. i also wnt to sleep but i cant. i feel hungry but i dont wnt to eat. something wrong with me. i cant do wht i wnt to do. i wnt to type my assignment but i ended up writing here. home. home.home. thts is wht going on in my mind. i miss my fam. i miss my room. i miss tv. i miss every single thing. time is moving so slow. i wnt to go HOME. im bored here. theres nothing here. ipg is a very3 dull place tht i've been! aigoo.

TGIF :)

Thank God Its Friday. hehe. seems like time is moving fast now as it is friday. im so bored. thinking about the assignment makes me feel even bored. aigooo. i wish tht i can go home. i miss the foods! i wnt to eat laksa sarawak n everything! i'll mke sure once i arrive at btu i ask my mom to stop at the restaurant. waa. honestly, the food here is completely diff from my hometown. the way the cook it make it diff. i dont really like spicy food but i hve to bear with it since im at 'negeri org'. :) still a long way to go to wait for the time to come. huh. SABAR. thts is the word tht i always tell myself.seeing others can go home whenever they wnt envy me. but my home is soo far far away. do i hve to consider myself lucky being far away from home? i consider it as my bad luck. when im at the boarding school this is wht i feel. sometimes i think tht im used to the word ALONE. i'll always go bck alone n living alone n far from my fam. n even far far away this time. this is my destiny. my mom always been proud of me as her friend say tht im independent. but acc im not independent. i act like one bcaause i dont wnt to mke her worry. i always cry whenever i hve to go bck alone. travel by aeroplane alone n going to my school by taxi ALONE. even now i still be alone. last time during the hari raya holiday i was all alone. from btu to kl n from kl to ipoh. only god know how i feel. i dont befriend with them which is from the same place with me. i dislike them. sometimes i really picky when its come to choose friend. not tht im snob or wht. i just dont mingle with the type of person i dont like bcoz im not a friendly person. hehe. i try to friendly but i cant. i only shows my true self with my friend. wht crap am i talking about here. rofl. btter to stop here. i need to continue doing my assignment. TTFN! :)

:)

just now, one of my friend ask me to open a link. so i read it n of course i was surprised. it was sort of mean i would say. but i now he has a good intention. thanks for sharing it to me. i appreciated it. frankly speaking the issue about 'btudung' or not is kind of sensitive sometimes. no one ever told me about it. it was the first time sum1 told me. im not ready to change. its not tht i am bad girl if im not wearing tudung rite. this is wht i used to be. nor my family cares about it because we are just the same. this is the way we are n maybe not the same here. so wht the big deal about it. i think it was just a small matter bcause this is the life tht i hve gone throughout my life so im used to it. if i wnt to wear a tudung i will not only wear it just to hide my hair. i will def change evreything bout me. thts my point. there is no use to just 'tutup ur head tapi hati xtutup'. still do wht is illegal to do. they are still wearing tight clothes. is it decent? dont judge a book by its cover. dont just simply judge ppl by their appeance or in specific btudong or not. doesnt mean if im not btudong then im a bad prson. i know i hve lack of knowledge about agama. n i dont know who should be blame about it bcause my father himself is a mualaf. he doesnt know about agama same goes with my mom. i try to learn n maybe one day i would change to bcome a better prson luaran n dalaman.

once upon a time..

suddenly i feel like i wnt to write tonite. maybe because i dont hve sumthing to do. i was wondering about my life. i nver thought tht i would end up being a teacher. it nver cross my mind. but, thanks god for giving me a change to be a teacher. it was a great job acc. full of passion. but, acc my real dream is i wnt to be a stewardess. sound funny is it. theres not much ppl out there tht  wnt to be a stewardess but i do. i really fell for it since i was form 2. but at tht time i jst keep it to myself bcoz i know it sound ridiculous. my mom will def say it was no use for u to study hard n get a good rsult if u end up being a stewardess. it just the same as being a waitress. but it is true rite. idk. i still like the job no matter how ppl view it. i hve my own reason why i like to be a stewardess. at tht time, i do cares about my height n my weight. when i got an offer from uitm i hve my own plan. i will reg to study there but i will go for the mas interview n if i pass i will quit my study. but, it will nver hppen bcoz im already her in ipg. sumtime its suck. this is really not a life tht i like. the fact of being teacher sumtime really2 annoys me. but do i cares. this is me. right now, i hve to focus n forget about my 'ridiculous' ambition. i hve to accept the fact tht i am going to be ateacher n i will study hard. although its not wht i do wnt to be but i hve to accept it. inilah jln y tlh allah tntukan. so, i hve to follow tht path. i hope tht i will success in wht ever tht im doing now.

today :)

i'm bck! today, as always i feel so bored. im ALONE! my roomate was going to tesco. she did asked me to join them but i just woke up n i feel so lazy. but yet, i feel bored to the power of 100%. haha. luckily, my kungfu fighter text me n asked me to go out. she was my saviour! hehe. me, kungfu n nyah were going to de garden. at first, it was so hard to look for a car park. n after a few round of looking for it finally we got the parking although it was quite far acc. we ate at the ayam penyet or for short AP. haha. the food is not bad but the place is so great! it was so fascinating. did i exaggerating bout it? haha. who cares. we took a few snap around de garden n after about hours there we decided to go bck. then we went to TM n finally tesco extra. we were playing a game there. car race n basketball. haha. we were the only 'children' there. lmoa. but, it was really a fun day.

hallu :)

its been a while i hvent update my blog. last week, my laptop got prob. cannot stat. n i hve to redo my assignment! i feel like i wnt to cry. n i feel soo bored bcoz i hve nothing to do. but luckily now its okay. thanks to cajuang n faiedz. idk wht they do tht my laptop can stat. uhh, finally. syukur i dont to need to spend money on my laptop. yesterday, we were doing presentation about the poem for our es. huh. it over! i feel so relieved. but, our lds assignment was given yesterday. but, there is not much to do for the assignment. i will do it during deepavali hliday.  it is a long holiday. 5 day holiday. but as usual i will not going bck. haha. if i do hve money now, defintely ill go to kl. i wnt to meet my sister! i miss her.